No one uses this saying anymore without a hint of irony or a whole lot of naivete. I wonder who rendered it obsolete: are the masses who mock a person’s effort to change to blame? Or is the person to blame him or herself, proclaiming to be a new person while engaging the same old shit?
I’ve changed because I’m changing everyday.
January 1, 2015 was also the start of a new me, because I’ve been bettering myself everyday for the last 6 months. 1/1/15 was a continuation of a process that started long before 12/31/14 even came around, I guess I can just celebrate the milestone. I have been doing: no tries, no attempts, no “effort.”
Letting go of guilt, resentment and bitterness. Embracing confidence, emotion and forgiveness. It’s been terrible, lol. And if it weren’t for my friends, I would have reverted back to self-destructive behavior that was my mainstay for years.
As Ms. Donda told Kanye, “No, you’re not perfect, but you’re not your mistakes.” But I am sum total of my mistakes and also my accomplishments, rededicated to bringing some good or some fun or some of both to this world.
I may not be a new me from last year, but I’m a better me today. And will be an even better me tomorrow.